Feeling Nostalgic

As I sit here anxiously awaiting tomorrow, both it's difficulties and it's delights, I am a bundle of emotions. I am thrilled to welcome my little girl into this world and finally be able to meet her but I am also experiencing trepidation and nostalgia. Trepidation for all the unknowns that tomorrow will bring (from how painful it will be this time around to what she's going to look like) and nostalgia for the time I've had with only my 3 beautiful little men.

I find myself feeling incredibly lucky to be the mom of my 3 very unique, very mischievous boys. They have taught me so much and I have to say sometimes it's been a blast to be the "queen" of the house. They are such a blessing to me and I am always amazed at how completely different 3 boys, close in age, can be. You have Lincoln, the deep thinker, who analyzes and stresses about everything. He's organized, focused, bright, and creative. He worries about everyone in the family, especially me and is fiercely loyal. Then you have Carter, who is impulsive, free, never thinks through anything and gives me a run for my money. He can be a pill but is also my most loving. The first to give me a big kiss or cuddle for no reason at all. And last, but certainly not least, is my little Jackson (who at 2 is almost as big as Carter at 5). He is such a special little guy. So incredibly easy going and loving. He is beyond smart and bonds with both Lincoln's bright, creative tendencies, as well as Carter's boisterous, crazy side. I sometimes think he is the glue between Carter and Lincoln.

Maybe it's the hormones but as I welcome this new chapter in my life (bringing another precious soul into this house) and the close of another (just me and my boys) I get a little weepy for both the future and the past. I can't believe I'm lucky enough to welcome a little girl into this world. Someone I can take shopping and get pedicures. Someone I can take to the ballet and put in dance lessons. And I can't believe how blessed I've been to spend this precious time with just my boys.